why we do what we do...

In life I feel like it's so easy to get caught up in the motions of everything that we do. Even in ministry- I find this happening. For me, its easy to get caught up in the checklist of it. I work at the school that I am a YoungLife leader at, so interaction with students is an everyday thing. I take it for granted to sit around and hear about their lives.

In all this though, God seems to have a way of knocking me to the floor with the opportunities to really seek Him in my everyday life at FPD. That happened to me today. I've been talking to some girls about a bunch of stuff that's been going on in their lives- which all kind of came to a major crazy point this weekend. In this whole situation I've just been kind of baffled by all of it- I feel like my brain is on information overload of the shenanigans. Its reminded me so much why I have to just take it to the Lord- and do everything I can to direct the students I have these relationships with to Him.

And then, today, sitting and having a one on one conversation with one of the students- I was brought even more down with the knowledge of the pain and hearbreaking things she has experienced. I didn't really have good words in response...and I still don't...I've just kind of sat here heartbroken for her....and that brought me back to the point of why we do what we do. I can't change her past- but I can love her and pray for her and show her the love that can really change her life in Jesus.

I know this post is a little heavier than most of mine...its just really thoughts that are laying hard on my heart tonight...

hmmmm

I know I haven't written in a while. And I still haven't finisehd giving y'all an overview of my summer as promised...sorry. That's kinda how my life has seemed these days though- unable to keep up. I feel like everything I do I just hurry up and do it so it can get done...which is probably not the best way to live. But thats how it is these days. Not really sure what I can do to fix it. I feel like everybody else is so on top of life sometimes- and I'm just not. I'm not trying to whine or make people (if anybody really does read this anyways) feel bad for me...that's really just how I feel these days. I'm stressed about my job, I miss my sister, and I just feel kind of uncertain and weirdly uncomfortable about things in life right now. Its probably all just because my job is so hard right now and there's a lot of pressure there that seems impossible to escape...

Anyways, I'm glad to still be feeling okay enough with life....I'm excited about YoungLife getting started up (even if that does mean more stuff to do)...but that's going to be a lot different this year too.

So anyways, I was feeling overwhelmed as I got to work this morning (I woke up late and somehow actually ended up here early) and so I thought I'd write out some of my stress so I could focus better on my many tasks at hand.

Oh, and I'm designing a new blog on wordpress. I'm excited about it. So if i ever get that done it will be "bye,bye blogger" and on to my newly designed blog.