tired

I can't remember the last time I slept in. Lately, I feel like I live my life exhausted...what's up with that? I think it makes me stressed...and there have been multiple people lately that have told me that I seemed stressed...and I hate that...I don't want to be that person that is stressed all the time.

That's why I love highschoolers, because they are not all about being stressed. I feel like all the adults I know are focused on what has to be done and the "next step" and what they can and need to be doing. But you hang out with highschoolers and they're thinking about the next fun things to do and even in the stress of living in the highschool world they still have the ability to try to make life fun. I want to be more like that, I swear these kids teach me so much more than I could ever teach them.

So, anyways, I'm tired is all I've really said right here but that really just doesn't matter. Really, what I have to say is that I'm going to really try to just look for the fun and excitement in life :).

Back to the blog

So I started this blog awhile back and apparently its the trendy thing to do because lots of people in my life (brother, friends, bro in law, more) have been blogging so I thought I'd get back on track. I probably won't be that great or update regularly or even often...but I feel like writing things out in life helps...and maybe I can get some feedback every once in a while. You'll also notice that I have only like 2 previous posts...there were a lot more than that...but when I decided that I might actually post my blog I had to delete some of them...not because they were bad or anything, but because they had some specific details about people and places and things that its not my place to advertise to the world...so thats that i guess.

To be honest, I think the whole blogging concept is kind of dorky, and I'm pretty certain any of the kids of mine that for some reason happen to read this will tell me that (go ahead, I'm ready for it!). I mean, the kids make fun of me all the time...today they told me i need to wear my backpack different....I mean, really, so now I'm back to worrying about if I look like a dork wearing my backpack...gotta love highschool! Whats funny is I really remember that being a huge deal to me, I just to have a piece of tape to show where exactly i needed to let the shoulder straps to so i would have it the "right" length to be cool. but now I'm just an uber dork so its all good.

Anyways, this blog is called More Than Sparrows...I don't know if i explained that in a previous post...but thats the name me and my sister always talked about calling our band when we made it...we never made the band, but the name has stuck with me in life. It refers to in the bible where Jesus is sending out the 12 disciples and he tells them how God takes care of the birds of the air and that they are sold like 2 for a penny and that as individuals we are worth so much more than that to God and if he takes care of them then surely he must be caring for us. I just think thats so cool....and I forget that whole concept way too much...that God loves me and values me. I think its so easy to get caught up in the crap of life--- work, friends, sports, activities, whatever--- and we forget that no matter what, we mean that much too Him. I work so hard to feel needed and valued--- at work, even with my kids, and what I miss is that God values me, not what I do...there is nothing I can do or can't do to earn it....he just has that value in me no matter what. That's pretty crazy.